My sweet reminder came in the form of Nathan’s sleepy reflection in my rear-view mirror. I chose this life with children for a reason, and it’s a life that I love and that fulfills me. I would not be happy if I chose not to have children in favor of free time and the ability to do what I want, virtually whenever I want. I longed to start a family for so many years, so I usually feel lame and guilty when I so desperately want things I can no longer have, at least while my family is young. I feel selfish for even wanting to ride right now.
When I “figured out what I wanted to do with my life,” that included raising a family, and it was the #1 thing on the list. Maybe I can get back into horseback riding when our children are in school, even if I should be working every minute they’re not at home. Yes, I’ll be a fair amount older, but competitive horseback riding is a sport that can be done at any age. Some of our nation’s top competitors are in their 50s. So maybe someday I will reach my goal as stated in my eighth grade yearbook, to become an Olympic equestrian. Time will tell!